Carlos Castaneda's Tensegrity
Images of a 20th-century sorcerer
From Los Angeles Weekly, by Celeste Fremon
For me the world is weird because it is stupendous, awesome, mysterious,
unfathomable; my interest has been to convince you that you must assume
responsibility for being here in this marvelous world, in this marvelous desert,
this marvelous time. I want to convince you that you must learn to make every
count since you are going to be here for only a short while; in fact, too short
witnessing all the marvels of it. -- from Journey to Ixtlan by Carlos Castaneda
The death of Carlos Castaneda was officially announced on the evening of June
According to his death certificate, the best-known proponent of "non-ordinary
reality" passed out of this world nearly two months earlier, on April 27, at his
home in Westwood. According to his attorney, Deborah Drooz, Castaneda had been
with liver cancer for some time, and it was his wish to leave his death
unpublicized. The news leaked out when Adrian Vashon, the son of his former
received a court letter indicating he was mentioned in Castaneda's will. Vashon
subsequently called the Los Angeles Times.
"Carlos Castaneda left the world the same way that his teacher, Don Juan Matus,
with full awareness," read a prepared statement that appeared four days later on
Web site maintained by Cleargreen (www.castaneda.com),
the corporation formed by
Castaneda and his associates. "The cognition of our world of everyday life does
provide for a description of a phenomenon such as this. So in keeping with the
of legalities and record-keeping that the world of everyday life requires,
Castaneda was declared to have died."
I first met Carlos Castaneda in the spring of 1972. I was 24 years old and
for Seventeen magazine. Carlos was a doctoral student in the UCLA Department of
Anthropology and already famous. His first two books, The Teachings of Don Juan:
Yaqui Way of Knowledge (his master's thesis) and A Separate Reality, both
his apprenticeship to Don Juan Matus, a Mexican Indian shaman, had sold nearly
a million copies in paperback. Journey to Ixtlan, the doctoral dissertation he
completing at the time we met, would later put him, or a drawing of him -- he
allow no recognizable photographs - on the cover of Time.
At this point, the Vietnam War was still in full swing, and Nixon was about to
re-elected. Like many young men and women of the period, I was terrified and
alienated by the actions of the prevailing culture, which seemed to have gone
the Castaneda books were a desperately needed antidote to a world view that felt
increasingly mechanistic and dispiriting.
Many of the concepts in the books - the notion of turning off one's internal
dialogue in order to apprehend an expanded reality, dispensing with one's ego in
order to follow "a path with heart," having an awareness of one's death in order
live life fully - each had direct parallels in other philosophical and religious
disciplines. Yet there was an aggressive emotional imperative with which
wrote that suited the tenor of the times. He painted himself in his stories as a
frightened naif bumbling through a magical yet deeply ethical spiritual system
could be taught and transferred. For a generation trying to account for its
religious feelings outside the constrictions of conventional dogma, Castaneda's
had immense appeal.
Anxious to meet him, I talked my bosses at Seventeen into letting me interview
Castaneda. By then he was already refusing all interviews, yet I was naively
convinced he would see me. I badgered his editor at Simon & Schuster, Michael
until his secretary took pity and pointed me to Castaneda's literary agent, a
named Ned Brown, whose office was in Beverly Hills. The curmudgeonly Brown
pass the message on to Castaneda only because, he said, I reminded him of his
daughter, adding that there was no hope of Carlos replying. Two weeks later,
however, Brown called back to say that Carlos had consented to see me. Castaneda
never showed for the meeting, but a week later, he called me at the office. "My
cousin used to read Seventeen!" he said brightly. "So I thought the message from
was a very good omen. When would you like to meet?"
Though he became a distinguished-looking man with age, in those days Castaneda
have been hard to pick out in a crowd. He was, according to his own description,
plain, brown man," 5-foot-5 and sturdy, with an unremarkable sort of face. His
- supremely watchful, intensely alive, often projecting an improbable
grief and amusement -- were the most remarkable thing about him.
Our initial interview - at Cafe Figaro, or was it the Source? - stretched into a
year-and-a-half-long conversation, during the course of which Castaneda became a
mentor, uncle and friend. Platonic in his attentions, he was elaborately
about the machinations of our meetings. I could only reach him by leaving
at the anthropology department. He would call me back from some pay phone in
to arrange a time. At the appointed moment, I would stand outside my West
apartment building and wait for him to drive up in his dusty tan van -
least half an hour late.
It was also typical that at some point during the afternoon or evening he would
with alarm, slap his palm to his forehead with sitcom-style dismay and rush to
nearest pay phone. Then he would call someone - often a university colleague -
whom he had an appointment. He was always enormously apologetic, offering an
impressively dramatic excuse for the oversight. "I'm calling you from Mexico
he might shout into the receiver, from a gas station in Pacific Palisades. "I
terrible! But I was unexpectedly detained by power!"
Generally, though, our outings seemed quite ordinary. We would sometimes go to
movies. Often we simply went for lunch or dinner, then for a walk. Once he took
to see a display of masks at UCLA, and afterward presented me with two Yaqui
But each encounter was in fact a teaching exercise. Along the bluffs above the
ocean, he taught me how to run in the dark without tripping, lecturing me
on the necessity of living my life more "impeccably." As we emerged into the
brightness of a theater lobby after seeing Auntie Mame, he turned to me and said
with great poignancy: "I took you to see this movie because I wanted you to know
that you must use the world. In fact, it's absolutely essential to do so! But
must remember to use it with love."
In the mouth of anyone else, these words would have sounded hopelessly
But Carlos imbued such pronouncements with a ferociously poetic force. Some of
sorcerer's tips were more practical than philosophical. When I complained to him
I'd run out of gas the night before, for example, he told me that Don Juan had
him that if he anthropomorphized his car, it would never run out of gas again.
took the advice to heart and chatted up my Karmann Ghia, which obliged me by
on fumes, if necessary, for the next 13 years.) Another day, he gave me a
and told me I should turn my bed around, head to the west (or was it the east?)
increase my energy.
Other instructions were not quite so straightforward. One day, he gave me an
unpolished rock the color of ochre, half the size of my hand. He said Don Juan
given it to him to give to me with explicit directions as to how I must polish
With great seriousness, I polished the rock for hours until I passed into a sort
waking dream state. The long-term significance of this event, I couldn't tell
But I still have the rock.
In addition to trying to help me "collapse the parameters of normal perception,"
Castaneda talked about personal concerns, such as his worry that his doctoral
might not be approved. He often seemed to be in a state of tremendous anguish
his apprenticeship. "Don Juan wants me to attempt to stop the world, but if I
have the energy to do it I may die," he would say. In Don Juanian terms,
the world" was letting go of the last vestiges of cultural preconceptions.
should stay here in L.A. But how can I?"
There was a wildly funny side to Carlos as well. He was a wicked gossip and
regaling me with tales of his encounters with other luminaries of the so-called
consciousness movement. He recounted how famous gestalt therapist and "horny old
goat" Fritz Perls had barged unwittingly into Castaneda's darkened bedroom at
Sur's Esalen Institute, mistakenly thinking it empty, and proceeded to have a
amorous tryst with a young acolyte - much to Castaneda's amusement. On another
occasion, he gleefully described a dinner that he and the guru Ram Dass (former
Leary associate Richard Alpert) had both attended, at which Ram Dass had gotten
roaring drunk and begun shouting boisterously, "That's what they call me, 'Baba
de ass!' Get it? 'Baba ram de ass!'"
In the spring of 1973, the article appeared in Seventeen, and soon after, I left
magazine. With the publication of Journey to Ixtlan, Castaneda was swept further
into the maelstrom of his fame and field work, and became much harder to reach.
Eventually we lost contact.
During all the time I spent with Castaneda, it never occurred to me that he
representing himself and his apprenticeship truthfully. Not that I took every
wrinkle of his stories to be literal fact. A few of my friends who knew of our
acquaintance asked if I thought he had really turned into a crow, as was
in one of the books. Such questions struck me, even at the time, as ridiculous.
work wasn't about metaphysical parlor tricks, I would reply, nor was it about
psychotropic drugs. It was a system for living, a way of deconstructing
reality in order to conceive of a world of unimaginable possibilities.
There had been occasional mutterings in the mainstream press about Castaneda's
being metaphorical in nature, but the first serious attempt to debunk his work
in 1976, when author-psychologist Richard de Mille (son of Cecil B.) wrote a
called Castaneda's Journey: The Power and the Allegory. De Mille painstakingly
combed through Castaneda's four published volumes, trolling them for
inconsistencies, cross-referencing his ethnographic data with other spiritual
philosophical disciplines from which de Mille felt Carlos had stolen. He also
suggested that the standards applied by Castaneda's doctoral committee had not
Castaneda fans and a majority of his colleagues at UCLA dismissed the de Mille
as ax grinding. However, by 1978 there was growing disagreement in anthropology
circles. Yaqui expert Dr. Ralph Beals asked to see Castaneda's field notes and
unhappy when Carlos continually dodged the request. Dr. Jacques Maquet, then
UCLA's Department of Anthropology, also objected to the fact that no hard
had ever been presented to back up Castaneda's accounts. "What is essential is
simply to have the experience," says Maquet today, "but, if it is anthropology,
make it possible for other anthropologists to repeat the experience. Castaneda
did that. He never presented Don Juan. What he has done is not anthropology
because he has kept it secret. He has created a brilliant fiction based on
real, but fiction nonetheless."
Further complicating matters, in 1982, a woman named Florinda Donner published a
book called Shabono, in which she described dramatic, Castaneda-like experiences
with the Yanomama Indians of Venezuela. The normally reclusive Carlos wrote a
glowing blurb on the jacket cover, and soon the news circulated that Donner was
claiming to also be an apprentice to Don Juan. A single academic apprenticed to
unseen sorcerer was one thing; a second began to stretch the credulity of all
the most ardent believers.
I met Donner in 1982 when she accompanied Castaneda to a dinner party given by
Jacques Barzaghi, Jerry Brown's longtime adviser. Carlos, whom I hadn't seen in
years, was distant; Donner wasn't, and we chatted for much of the evening. I
her stories of her time with the Yanomama convincing.
When I saw her a few years later at Barzhagi's wedding, she confided that all
apprentices - Castaneda, herself and several other Anglo women - were in a
emotional state. She described fantastic incidents - about how, for example, one
their sorcery teachers had turned old before their eyes, she said. "Like the
of Dorian Gray. It was like something you'd imagine seeing in a science-fiction
movie, but we actually saw it happen." Now Carlos was very ill and living in
Arizona. "We don't know what to do," she said. "We are waiting for him to lead
But he doesn't know what to do either, so we just have to wait."
It was difficult to know what to make of such a story. As with Castaneda,
emotional turmoil seemed intense and genuine. But these increasingly fantastic
stories of multiple sorcerer's apprentices were hard to swallow whole, leading
to conclude that many of Castaneda's stories also may have been stupendous
falsehoods. Even those of us who'd been believers, or nearly so, couldn't help
wonder if we hadn't, in fact, simply been audience members to a sort of Truman
in reverse, a troupe of actors who had infiltrated the real world, staging a
theater that had lasted for decades.
After years of inaccessibility, Castaneda began making public appearances in
would be the last decade of his life. At first they were small interactive
gatherings held without fanfare at various bookstores; later he led occasional
martial-arts classes and seminars in a form of movement Castaneda called
"tensegrity," billed as ancient "shamanistic" exercises designed to increase
awareness. These were presented by Donner and the various other women who
Castaneda. Through Cleargreen, these women have announced that they will be
the work going. With corporate efficiency, Tensegrity seminars are scheduled for
July and August, with more seminars and videos planned for the future.
If anything, the controversies surrounding Castaneda are greater than ever. But
of those who knew him well have arrived at a provisional answer. "He had a
for introducing people to the possibility of seeing other realities," says
Garvin, a former member of Castaneda's inner circle, "but there was never a Don
Juan. He knew shamans. He did a great deal of research over the years, often
other names. And he would journey and dream, and stimulate amazing journeys and
dreams in the people around him. "
"I had astonishing experiences with Carlos that are difficult to explain," says
Douglass Price-Williams, professor emeritus in anthropology and psychiatry at
"You see, you can't say his work is factual, but you can't say it's false
It's so much more complex than that. He did have profound experiences of his
And he had a great deal of ethnographic knowledge. He also engaged in elaborate
role-playing that he pushed to the point that I think he could no longer tell
difference. But the thing that set Carlos apart was his genius for taking all
and communicating it in a way that truly moved people."
Larry Peters, an anthropologist and psychotherapist who has done extensive field
work with Nepalese shamans, puts it another way: "Carlos was an expert navigator
that other world. Frankly I believe Don Juan was an entity - a spirit, if you
that Carlos encountered while dreaming. There is a deep wisdom in his texts that
cannot be regarded as either fiction or knowledgeable fabrication."
The last time I saw Castaneda, in late 1993, it was at one of those bookstore
events. "We are all beings who are going to die," he told an attentive invited
(which included Tom Hayden). "We must live our lives with that knowledge, with
harshness. Don Juan used to say to me, 'What have they done to you? What have
done to you?' He meant that I was so captured by my ideologies that I could not
man. I could not truly live the wonder that it is to be a human being. We are
travelers, as humans. We are adventurers, struggling to perpetuate, to better,
evolve our species. But unless we break free of the prison of our ideologies, we
will come to the end of our lives and wonder what we have lived for."
I returned home that evening feeling awakened, as if my most essential self had
dashed with ice water. Not that I imagined I could ever wholly follow his
dictums; understanding the secrets of the universe is one thing, getting one's
to bed at the proper time is quite another. And yet, for weeks after, I was
able to address my individual days and nights with less fear, fewer
more clarity and compassion.
In the end, it's the work that mattered, whatever its provenance. In the end, it
the man who mattered; for those of us lucky enough to come within his range,
was ever the same again.
And if, in the end, Don Juan never existed?
For my own provisional answer, I think of Peter A. Bien, translator of Nikos
Kazantzakis' The Last Temptation of Christ, who dealt with a similar question
asked whether he believed in all the miracles associated with Jesus. "I realize
of what we know about him is novelistic," said Bien. "But I act as if it isn't."
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