Florinda Donner in conversation
with Alexander Blair-Ewart
Florinda Donner is a longtime colleague and fellow dream-traveler of Carlos
Castaneda and the acclaimed author of The Witch's Dream and Shabono. Her latest
Being-In-Dreaming: An Initiation into the Sorcerer's World, an autobiographical
account of her halting, sometimes unwilling, often bewildering initiation into
works of being-in-dreaming, has recently been released and will be available in
Canada in the Spring. Anthropologist and sorceress, Florinda Donner lives in Los
Angeles, California and Sonora, Mexico.
Alexander Blair-Ewart: Now, at the beginning of the book, you talk about how you
become drawn into a living myth. Can you talk about that mythology?
Florinda Donner: It's a living myth. Well the myth of the Nagual is a myth, but
myth that is being relived over and over again. You see, the myth that exists is
myth that there is the Nagual and that he has his troop of people, apprentices,
sorcerers. Actually I'm not an apprentice of Don Juan. I was an apprentice of
Castaneda who was an apprentice of Don Juan. And I am one of the 'sisters' who
actually of the women of Florinda, and she gave me her name. So, in that sense,
is a myth which exists. They didn't care that I called them witches. It has no
connotations for them . From the western point of view, the idea of a brujo, or
witch, has always a negative connotation. They couldn't care less, because for
people, the abstract quality of sorcery voids automotatically [sic] any positive
negative connotation of the term. We are apes on one level, but we have this
magical side. In that sense we relive a myth.
Abe: So the myth of the Nagual is that there is an unbroken lineage from the
ancient Toltecs right down to modern times. I'm wondering if I can get you to
about what the pattern of the myth actually is.
Florinda: Well, there is no pattern of the myth. That's why the whole thing is
baffling and so difficult. When I first got involved with these people my main
quest, my main aberration, which I came to call it later, was that I wanted to
some rules and regulations about what the hell it is I had to do. There were
There is no blueprint. Because each new group has to find their own way to deal
this idea of trying to break the barriers of perception. The only way we can
the barriers of perception, according to Don Juan, is that we need energy. All
energy is already deployed in the world to present the idea of self- what we
who we want to be perceived as, how other people perceive us. So Don Juan says
of our energy is deployed in doing that, and nothing new can come to us. There's
nothing open to us, because no matter how "egoless" we are, or we pretend to be,
we want to believe we are, we are not. Even let's say "enlightened" people, or
that I have met- at one time Carlos Castaneda was going around trying to meet
and the ego of those people was so gigantic, in how they wanted to be perceived
the world . And that's, according to Don Juan, exactly what kills us. Nothing is
open to us anymore.
Abe: A real Nagual, a real seer wouldn't care how the world perceives them,
particularly, would they?
Florinda: No, they don't. But they still have to fight it. Castaneda has been at
this for thirty years. I've been at this for over twenty years, and it's
Abe: What's the nature of the battle? Because you use the language of the
What's the nature of the battle? What are you fighting?
Florinda: The self.
Abe: The self.
Florinda: It's not even the self; it's an idea of the self, because if we would
really get the self below the surface, we don't really know what it is. And it
possible to curtail this idea, this bombastic idea we have of the self. Because
whether it's a negative idea or a positive idea doesn't really matter. The
employed to sustain that idea is the same.
Abe: So there's tremendous emphasis in this tradition on overcoming what is
Florinda: Self-importance, exactly. That's the main battle. To shut off our
internal dialogue. Because even if we're isolated someplace, we are still
talking to ourselves. That internal dialogue never stops. And what does the
dialogue do? It always justifies itself, no matter what. We replay things,
what we could have said or could have done, what we feel or don't feel. The
is always on me. We're constantly spouting this mantra- me...me...me, silently
Abe: So, an opening emerges when...
Florinda: ...when that dialogue shuts off. Automatically. We don't have to do
anything. And the reason people reject Castaneda as not true is because it's too
simple. But its sheer simplicity makes it the hardest thing there is to do for
There are about six people in our world engaged in the same pursuit. And the
difficulty we all have is totally shutting off that internal dialogue. It's fine
we're not threatened. But when certain buttons arc pushed, our reactions arc so
ingrained in us that it's so easy to go back on automatic pilot. You see,
one great exercise that Don Juan prescribes- the idea of recapitulation. The
that you recapitulate your life, basically. And it's not a psychological
recapitulation. You want to bring back that energy you left in all the
you've had with people throughout your life, and you start of course from the
present moment and you go backwards in lime. But if you really do a good
recapitulation, you discover, by the time you are three or four years old, you
learned all your reactions already. Then we become more sophisticated, we can
them better, but basically the pattern has already been established, how we're
to interact with the world and with our fellow human beings.
Abe: So here is the image, then, or the awareness of a kind human being who is
travelling a parallel path to the world of the Tonal, or the world of the
the social person. This other world, his other opening, is something that has
apparently always been there.
Florinda: Yes, it's always there. It's available to all of us. Nobody wants to
into it, or people think they want to tap into it, but as Don Juan pointed out,
seeker is involved in something else, because a person who seeks already knows
Abe: Yes, that's clear.
Florinda: The disappointment that so many people who are "seekers" have with
Castaneda is because, when he talks to them, well, they have already made up
mind how things should be. And they are not open. Even if they're listening,
not open to anything anymore, because they already know how it should be, what
Abe: My version of that is that I am not interested in self-improvement. I'm
interested in self-realization, but not im- provement, and I'm not concerned
whether or not what I turn out to be in the process of recapitulation is
nice and spiritual and acceptable, because it's going to contain elements of
as well as everything else.
Abe: But this is a very deeply disturbing idea for most people.
Florinda: It is, yes, definitely. You see, we believe in this idea that we are
basically energetic beings. Don Juan said everything hinges on how much energy
have. Our energy to fight, even to fight the idea of the self, requires an
amount of energy. And we go always to the easiest path. We go back to what we
even us who have been involved in this for so long. It would be a lot easier
say, oh, to hell with it, you know, I' m just going to indulge a little bit. But
thing is, that little bit of indulging would plunge you right back to point zero
Abe: Except for one thing that we both know, Florinda, which is this: that once
you pass a certain point within yourself, if you have reached that silence, I
believe, even for one moment, if its real...
Florinda: ...you can't stop it. Exactly. But to reach this moment of silence you
need the energy. You can stop it, what Juan calls this momentary pause, this
centimetre of chance, and you can stop it immediately.
Abe: And once it's happened, you'll never be the same again.
Abe: And you might want to go back to your old ways and indulge, but you can 't
get any satisfaction out of it.
Florinda: Exactly. No, you can't. There's no satisfaction. That's totally
I think, if we would really arrive...let's say a critical mass would arrive at
feeling or at that knowledge, we could change things in the world. The reason
nothing can change is because we're not willing to change ourselves, whether
political dogma, economic or social issues, it doesn't really matter. What the
is the whole thing with the rainforest and the environment at the moment? How
expect someone to change if we're not willing to change ourselves? Thc change is
phony; the change is restructuring or replaying the pieces, but there's no
Basically we are predatory beings, you see. That hasn't changed in us. We could
that predatory energy to change our course, but we're not willing to change
Abe: Now, in the myth, the individual seer and/or Nagual is selected by
providence, the unknown, the ineffable.
Florinda: ...actually selected. Carlos has been "tapped" energetically. Let's
at our energetic configuration....some people are basically energetically
They call Carlos a three-pronged Nagual; Don Juan was a four-pronged Nagual. So
does that really entail? Basically, they have more energy than the rest of the
group, and that's something very curious. Why the hell him, or why, for
are always the men Naguals? We have women Naguals in the lineage, but the men
more energy, the one's that have been selected so far. They're not better. There
were people in Don Juan's world who were infinitely more spiritual, better
bigger men of knowledge in the sense that they knew more, and it didn't make any
difference. It is not that he is more or less than somebody else. It's just that
has that energy to lead.
Abe: And he can give some of that energy to somebody, too, and give them a
Florinda: We draw from that energy, yes. It is not that you get that energy, but
he has that energy, if nothing else, not to become whatever the world presents.
instance, in that sense, being with Castaneda for so long, the worldly goodies
have been presented to him are unbelievable. He has never wavered from his path.
I, personally, could say now, that if I had been put in that position for that
years, I could not honestly say that I would have been so impeccable. And you
have to acknowledge that, because the worst thing, of course, we can do is to
hide certain things. And for me to have witnessed Castaneda's journey, I mean,
were incredible worldly things presented to him which he never took. And you
for that you need energy. That's where energy comes in; that's when you need
is then the leader of the group to point out that way. Because if somebody else
would have been the Nagual that doesn't have the energy, he would have
Abe: Can a Nagual succumb and then recover?
Florinda: No. There is no chance.
Abe: How come?
Florinda: Go back to the myth. The eagle flies in a straight line. It doesn't
around. You might be able to say okay, you have to run harder after it. But what
does that mean? It's a metaphor.
Abe: So, the Nagual works in different ways to fulfill the unfolding of the
Florinda: Don Juan had more people behind him. Energetically he had a larger
so he could practically pluck you in and put you some place. Carlos will not do
that. For him, whatever the people he is working with- and there are six of us-
a matter of decision. That's all. Our decision is all that counts, nothing else.
will not cajole us; he will not beg; he will not tell us what to do. We have to
know. Having been exposed to this for so long, having been with Don Juan, any
can try to walk on this path, that has to be enough for him. There was nothing
would do forcefully to make sure that we stayed on this path.
Abe: Different Naguals work in different ways. Is it true of Carlos Castaneda,
I've heard him described as the Nagual of stalkers?
Florinda: Yes, but I would say...I don't know. He's a dreamer.
Abe: Yeah, that emerges, too.
Florinda: And then, what is this idea of dreaming, dreaming and being awake?
a different state. It's not that you're zonked out. No, you are totally normal
coherent, but something in you plays energetically on a different level.
Abe: There's something in your eyes, too.
Abe: Something in your eyes that is too to learn to look at two worlds
Florinda: Exactly. And again this idea is that you have collapsed the barrier
perception in terms of what we see; whatever we perceive has been defined us by
social order, no matter what. Intellectually we are willing to accept at
is culturally defined, but we will not accept it on any other level. But it's
absurd, because it exists on another level. And I can only say, because we been
involved with these people- and certainly I'm also in the world- that is
see on those two levels and to be totally coherent in both, and impeccable on
Abe: Talk about impeccability. What is impeccability?
Florinda: You know exactly what you have to do. Especially for women, we are
reared to be very petty beings. Women are so petty, it's unbelievable. And I'm
saying that men are not, but with men, no matter how we want to express it, men
always are on the winning side. Whether they are losers or not, it's still male.
world is a male world, regardless how well off they are or not, regardless
or not they believe in any kind of feminist ideology, it doesn't really matter.
the men are the winners in our society.
Abe: In the book you talk about how women are actually enslaved by their
attachment to the sexuality of men. Can you talk about that?
Florinda: Definitely. First of all, to me, one of the most shocking things which
denied and refused to believe for quite some time, was this idea of the fog
by sexual intercourse. They went even further to explain that basically what
goes on is that, when we have sexual intercourse, when the male ejaculates, not
do we get the semen, but in that moment of energetic outburst, what really
is that they are what Don Juan calls 'energetic worms', filaments. And those
filaments stay in the body for. From a biological point of view, those filaments
ensure that the male returns to the same female and takes care of the offspring.
male will recognize that it is his offspring by the filaments at a total
Abe: What is the exchange of energy in sexual intercourse?
Florinda: She feeds the man energetically. Don Juan believes that the women are
the cornerstone for perpetuating the human species, and the bulk of that energy
comes from women, not only to gestate, to give birth and nourish their
but also to ensure the male's place in the whole process.
Abe: So, the woman is enslaved, then, by this fog. How does she release herself?
Florinda: If we talk about it from a biological point of view, is she enslaved?
The sorcerers say yes, in the sense that she always views herself through the
She has no option. I used to be excruciatingly mad about this whole discussion;
used to go over and over it with them, and go back to this whole idea,
because this was in the early seventies when the women's movement was at its
And I said "No, women have come a long way. Look at what they have
and they said, "No, they haven't accomplished anything." To them, the sexual
revolution- and they were not prudes- they were not interested in morality, they
were only interested in energy- so they said, that for women to be liberated
sexually, in a way enslaved them even more, because suddenly they were feeding
energetically not just one male, but many males.
Abe: That's interesting.
Florinda: So for them it was absurd, and whatever's happening at the moment, he
foresaw that in the seventies. He said they're going to dive down on their
They're going to be weakened. And they are. The few women I've talked to- I've
certain lectures, and the books- and when I've talked about this, it's very
interesting that the women do agree. And I first thought I would have a great
of difficulty with this subject, but especially women who have gone through the
process of having multiple lovers said they were exhausted, and they don't know
Abe: So we are talking about something beyond the sexual.
Florinda: Originally, beyond the the sexual aspect, the female, the womb ensures
that the woman is the one that's closest to the spirit in this process of
approaching knowledge as being-in- dreaming. The man cones upward, and by the
definition of the cone, it comes to a finite end. It's an energetic force. He
strives because he is not close to the spirit, or whatever we want to call that
great energetic force out there. According to the sorcerers, the woman is
the opposite. The cone is upside down. They have a direct link with it, because
womb for the sorcerer is not just an organ of reproduction; it is an organ for
dreams, a second brain.
Abe: Or heart.
Florinda: Or heart, and they do apprehend knowledge directly. Yet we have never
been allowed to define what knowledge is in our society or in any society. And
women who do create or help to formulate the body of knowledge, it has to be
male terms. Let's say a woman does research. If they do not abide by the rules
already established by the male consensus, they won't be published. They can
slightly, but always within that same matrix. It is not allowed for women to do
Abe: So the sorceress is removed from the hypnotism of all that.
Florinda: Of the social, yes. It's very interesting that you mention the idea of
hypnotism, because Don Juan always said at the time when psychology produced
we were too passive. We would have followed either Mesmer or Freud. We are
beings. We never really developed that other path...
Abe: Yes. The path of energy.
Florinda: ...and this would never have happened to us if Freud wouldn't have had
the upper hand.
Abe: Well, he's lost it now.
Florinda: No, not really, because with all we do, who knows how many generations
it takes? Let say he has been discredited intellectually, but our whole cultural
baggage...We still talk in those terms, even people who don't even know who
is. It's part of our language, our culture.
Abe: Yes, I know. It's very frustrating, dealing with people who approach the
whole of reality from this hackneyed psychological viewpoint.
Florinda: Yes. And they don't even know where it comes from. It's part of our
Abe: So the sorceress is freed from this condition.
Florinda: Well, free in the sense that once you see what the social order really
is- it's an agreement- at least you are more cautious in accepting that. People
"Oh but look how different life is from your grandmother's or mother's time." I
it's not. It's only different in degree. But nothing is dif- ferent. If I would
lived my life the way it had been established for me...yes, I was more educated,
had a better chance. But that's all. I still would have ended up the same way
had ended up. Married, frustrated, with children that by now I probably would
or they would hate me.
Abe: I keep trying to get you now to cross that line, and talk about what occurs
now that you've realized that there is that thralldom and you begin to free
from it. What is it that opens up to perception?
Abe: Everything. Good.
Florinda: First of all, in your dreams you can see. For instance, my work is
in dreaming. Not that I don't have to do the work, but it comes in dreaming.
Abe: Now you're using the word dreaming in this very specific sense, which is in
this tradition. Can you talk about what dreaming actually is?
Florinda: In the traditional sense, when we fall asleep, as soon as we start
entering a dream, in that moment when we're half awake and half asleep, and
conscious, you know from Casta- neda's work that the assemblage point flutters,
starts shifting, and what the sorcerer wants to do is that he wants to use that
natural (that happens to every one of us) shift to move into other realms. And
that you need an exquisite energy. Again it comes down to energy. We need an
extraordinary amount of energy because you want to be conscious of that moment
use it without waking up.
Abe: Yes, a very high accomplishment.
Florinda: For me, it's very easy to enter, to use it. The thing is, I had no
control at that time- although I have now- over when it was going to happen. But
could center into this state of what they call...I mean, the women were not
interested in calling it the 'second attention'; they were interested in calling
'dreaming awake', because it is the same thing. And you'd reach different
and what you do is that in that dreaming state eventually you have the same
you have in your daily life. And that's exactly what the sorcerers do. It's the
thing; there's no difference anymore.
Abe: So you are now able to exist in another reality?
Florinda: Well, I don't really know. You see, we don't have the language to talk
about it, except to talk about it in known terms. So in a weird way, when I ask
myself, "Do I exist in another reality?", yes and no. It's not quite right to
say that, because it is one reality. There is no difference. Let's say there are
different layers, like an onion. But it's all the same. And it becomes very
How am I going to talk about it? In metaphors? Our metaphors are already so
by what we already know.
Abe: Yes, the problem of language.
Florinda: You see we don't have the language to really talk about what then
happens when you are in the 'second attention', or when we 'dream awake' . Bul
as real as any other reality. What is reality? It is, again, a consensus. And
see, the thing is, we only want to agree about this intellectually on one level.
it's more than just an intellectual agreement. Let's say, it can be more. And
that, again, we go back to that same thing- it all hinges on energy.
Abe: That's right. But it also hinges on something called 'intent'.
Florinda: Exactly. But in order to hook yourself to 'intent'...See, 'intent' is
out there, it's this force- Don Juan was not interested in religion- but, in a
way maybe it is exactly what we call God, the supreme being, the one force, the
spirit. You see, each culture knows what it is. And the thing is, Don Juan,
said you don't beg for it. You ask, and in order to ask for it, you need energy.
Because not only do you need energy to hook yourself onto it, but you want to
Abe: Ycs. So, this thing of intent, I mean it's an easy word to say, but it's
actually a quite complex operation.
Florinda: Yes, exactly, very complex. For Don Juan and his people, to talk about
sorcery and witchcraft, with all those negative connotations, they couldn't care
less what we called the practices. For them it was very very abstract. To them
sorcery is an abstraction, and it was this idea of expanding the limits of
perception. Because, for them, our choices in life are limited by the social
We have boundless options, but by accepting these choices, of course, we set a
to our limitless possibilities.
Abe: And yet the human being seems...
Florinda: ...constantly searching for that which has been...
Abe: ... lost...
Florinda: ....lost or caged in by the social order. They put blinds on us the
moment we are born. Look at the way we coerce the child to perceive the way we
Abe: Yes, the transmission of culture.
Florinda: It's the most perfect example. Children truly perceive more,
a great deal more. But they have to make some order out of that chaos, and we,
course, are the perennial teachers of what is proper to perceive within our
And if they don't abide by that, my god, we shoot them with drugs, or lock them
in therapy with psychiatrists.
Abe: There have been these traditions, which have existed for a long, long time,
and now in the last, say, twenty or thirty years in particular, we start to hear
about them. Why did Castaneda write his books?
Florinda: Bccause it was a task; it was a sorceric task. That Don Juan impressed
upon him. Castaneda is the last of his line. There is no one else. There's a
of Indians that we work with. You see, Don Juan, in a weird way made almost a
mistake with Castaneda, when he first was put in touch, whatever the design or
of the spirit was which put Don Juan face to face with Castaneda. And he rallied
right away. His circle of apprentices- and I think it's in Tales of Power and
Second Ring of Power, when he talks about the people in Oaxaca and the Little
Sisters and all those people. And then, years later, Don Juan realizes that
not the way Castaneda is going. Castaneda was even more abstract than Don Juan
His path was a totally different path. And then when he gathered these other
because the people that are with Castaneda, we all met Don Juan before we met
Castaneda. Actually there was only five of us before- four of us and Castaneda.
Abe: So, there was the sorcerer's task of writing the books. What I'm trying to
get at is, that this knowledge, just as knowl- edge, becomes available now and
available to millions of people in this form. What is the purpose of that?
Florinda: Well, somebody has to get hooked by it. And people do. For us, for our
mentality as the westem ape, as Don Juan always called us, you see, we have to
hooked first intellectually, because obviously that's how our whole being works.
When I was in school, I was just a step away from going into graduate school,
had been in this world for two or three years, and I said, "What am I doing by
continuing school? Why should I get a PhD.? It's absolutely redundant." And Don
and all the women said it's absolutely not redundant, because in order to reject
something you have to understand it at its most sophisticated. Because for you
say you're not interested in philosophy, or you're not interested in
it's meaningless. You can only say it after you have at least have made some
to understand it. There's no reason to reject it, and when plunging into this
of the 'second attention' and 'dreaming awake', your mind has to be so well
for you to emerge again, to come out with the knowledge. Because if you have not
brain or the mind to do it, you might as well just go throw stones in the
because it's meaningless. And for them it was extremely important that all of us
very well trained. Everyone working within this little group has a degree. There
historians, anthropologists, librarians.
Abe: So, the knowledge is made available to millions of people, and people
hooked by it.
Florinda: On one level, they will, yes.
Abe: And does that mean that the tradition has now begun to proliferate itself
that way, also?
Florinda: I don't know. If I go by Castaneda's mail, which he doesn't read, I
would say yes. But then, most of the stuff... I mean I open letters from time to
time, and they're mad, they're crackpots most of them. Some of them are very,
serious enquiries, and most of them are just truly cracked people. (laughter) I
they're cracked. Like, "I am the new Nagual." or "I have been visited by you in
dreams." I mean truly bizarre things.
Abe: Well, there are many levels to that, as you know. But I think that you
you sorcerers there, and the whole Casta- nedan reality has actually affected
mass collective consciousness of, particularly, North America.
Florinda: It is as you say; the work is out there. There's a great many people
reading it. And some people are truly very serious about it.
Abe: And some of them are people who are non-Natives who have become involved in
Native spirituality. In a way, the work that has come from your group has had a
tremendous quickening effect on Native spiritualities all over this continent,
have found a track back into their traditions.
Florinda: You see, the whole point of Don Juan was that you don't go back,
we are caught again in the myth and the rituals. And for Don Juan, myth and
rituals...myth in the sense that yes, that you're part of this matrix, but not
the sense that you're going to live it by invoking certain rituals, certain
that were, let's say, successful in the l9th century. Because, he said, that's
exactly the fallacy, because originally a ritual is only to hook your attention.
Once your attention is hooked, you drop it. As the apes that we are, we of
are very comforted by the ritual. People that truly transcend a certain
it by exactly getting out of it. Yet the rest of the mass is mesmerized by the
Abe: Seeing the truth of that and the fact that Castaneda describes you as the
seers, how does that emerge?
Florinda: The new seers? For the women it is very important, this idea that the
womb is not just an organ of reproduction. In order to activate this, our intent
to be different. In order to change our intent we go back again to energy. You
we don' t really know what it means to use the womb as an organ for being, an
of light, of intuition. For us, intuition really is something that has already
defined. There is no real intuition anymore, because we intuit with our brains.
Juan was interested in women, and people always ask, "Well, how come there's
so many women? Do you have orgies? Is there all kinds of stuff going on?" He
"No, it's because the male doesn't have the womb. He needs that magical 'womb
(laughter). " It's very important, you see.
Abe: Let me ask some technical questions there, if I may, on behalf of my female
readers. Does the womb have to be fully functioning? I mean, if a woman had her
tubes tied, would her womb still work?
Florinda: Yes, as long as she doesn't have a hysterectomy.
Abe: So long as the womb isn't removed...
Florinda: ...if the womb is there, yes.
Abe: Then it can work.
Florinda: Oh, absolutely. But the only thing is you need to summon that intent.
Like certain of the Goddess cults- "When God Was A Woman"- and I was talking to
women a month ago, and they were all in goddess groups. And every month they go
the forest; they go someplace up to Sequoia and they groove in the forest, in
trees, and oh, they have a great time hanging out, debating, making rituals in
river. And I said, "But what the fuck are you doing? You go back home, and then
are the same assholes you were always. You open your legs whenever the master
"I need you"" And they were shocked. I mean, they quite dis- liked me, because
don't like to hear that. They said, "But we felt so good for three days." And I
said, "But what's the point of feeling good for three days if your life
the same way?" What are we resting from? Because our life is going to continue.
don't we change? This idea of the rituals and even going back to the Native
it didn't even work back then, on one level. We were conquered.
Abe: So it's something that has to live now in a completely authentic way.
Florinda: It has to be fluid, and the practitioner has to be fluid to accept
changes. Even within us, things are changing constantly, and we're so
a certain groove, until something blasts us out of it. And we resent it, but we
to be fluid. Only energy will give us that fluidity.
Abe: How do you accummulate energy?
Florinda: To start off with, at least at the beginning, it was Don Juan's idea
that the best energy that we have is our sexual energy. It's the only energy
really have, and most of our sexual energy is squandered.
Abe: Now, is it the same for men and women?
Florinda: Of course it's the same for men and women. The only thing is with
you see that energetically the woman takes on the burden of feeding the man
their energetic fila- ments. So, in that sense, it's worse for women. And for
man too, because the man is hooked. Energetically he is hooked, no matter what.
we have all kinds of psychological explanations. People who we've had affairs
and we can't get her out of our minds, whatever. You see, we have this gray
of description, but what really is going on is on a totally different level that
don't want to talk about because it's not part of our cultural kit.
Abe: So the primary way of accumulating energy, then, is to be celibate?
Florinda: Well, it's very difficult, but it would be a good try, at least to
Abe: If a woman was called to this way, if she got hooked, or a man got hooked
this tradition, how would they know? How would they know that they had been
by a tradition and not just by some damn obsession?
Florinda: For instance, Castaneda's books spell out very clearly...if you read
Castaneda's books carefully, they're al- most manuals.
Abe: Yes, I know. And you read them again and again, and you finally understand
what they're talking about
Florinda: You will know that something has changed, because you will feel it
energetically. And then there's this whole idea that you can abandon this idea
the self. It's not that you're going to laugh at others. But you find them
despicable, and yet you don't want to judge them, either, because who the hell
we to judge anybody anyway? But you know that you are not part of it, in the
of the social agreement, and it's almost like a phony part of you that is
to you, because you do have to function in the world. You have to present a
idea Of the self. You know, Don Juan always said if some truthful change has
place there is no way to be rejected, whatever it means to be rejected. I don' t
know. By intent coming in contact with us? I don't really know. There have been
people that have come in contact with us, and they are there. I mean, we're
together anyway; each person lives on their own, and just from time to time we
get together. Originally we had this little class when Castaneda was here. He
teaches certain very interesting movements, basically to store up energy. So,
people have been there for two years, and they're changing little by little. And
it's amazing. You see, if you let something go, some- thing in you will know.
Abe: You have published this book, for instance, and I read it. Now I don't have
physical image of you, but my feelings form a sense of who you might be, or what
might be like. Now, does that energy field affect you, now that there's this
Florinda: One of the things that Don Juan made very clear to Castaneda...see,
the book is out, the book is out. It has nothing to do with you anymore. For you
be wondering, living in hope- is the book doing well or not doing well?- see,
a very, very difficult thing to divorce yourself from. Because somehow you are
involved. To truly let go is very very difficult. I had two other books- The
and The Witches Dream- and it was very easy. With this one, because it's the
time I talk about my involvement with Don Juan, it's very difficult. And maybe
because for the first time I'm talking more openly-- with the other ones I did
absolutely nothing. With this one I am more involved. I have given lectures in
bookstores to groups of people, which is very interesting, because, as you said
before, there are a great many people who are truly very seriously interested,
Abe: Oh, I think I know a know people who've gone a little beyond intellect with
Florinda: There are, definitely. I do believe that, yes.
Abe: Because we talk about different kinds of luminous bodies. There are people
who read these books and suddenly it's self recognition time.
Florinda: Precisely, yes.
Abe: Now these books, then, are affecting a change in the way people perceive
Florinda: Yes. Basically the goal is how we perceive the world, and breaking
parameters of perception, in terms of how we perceive ourselves, too. But, we
want the focus on the 'I'. We want to be a witness. Because everything in our
society is filtered through the 'I', through the 'me', we are incapable of
story or recounting an event without making us the main protagonist, always. You
see, Don Juan was interested to let the event unfold itself, and then it becomes
infinitely richer, because then it opens up. And even in the world, as an
just become a witness; don't be the protagonist. It's amazing what opens up.
Abe: Now, on this long path, one of the things that's described in the
is that the person, the seer and the Nagual, everybody, will reach a period of
despondency, where they're sure it's going to fail, nothing's going to
happen. And the reason I raise this is because I have a sense that this feeling
actually being shared by many people now. So, please talk to that for a moment.
Florinda: Yes, exactly. (laughter) I'm going to add to your depression
No, it is true. Something in us knows, and that's why there's the urgency with
Juan. The imperative from the point of view of Nature is the perpetuation of the
species, and we are no longer interested. We are interested in evolution,
evolution is an equal, if not a greater, imperative than procreation. Because if
don't evolve, if we don't mutate into something different, we are truly going to
blast ourselves out of this planet, I think irredeemably. We have destroyed our
resources, I mean totally. Whether we have fifty or a hundred more years in
time, as a planet, is immaterial. It doesn't really matter. We as a species are
doomed. And in that sense, evolution is our only way out. And again, as Don Juan
stresses, evolution is in the hands of women, not of men.
Abe: So, as a male, what do I do? I just sit here and wait for women to save the
Florinda: Yes and no. You see the man has to relinquish his power, and he's not
going to do it, not peacefully. He's not. I'm not saying that, you know, you're
beating your chest, saying "I will not relinquish my power". No, it's much more
insidious than that.
Abe: Go into that. Talk about it.
Florinda: Well, I don't think it's ever stated. For instance, okay, here's these
sensitive men who have been in men's groups, trying to come to terms with their
spirituality, and have become totally in agreement with their wives, their
the female they are with- but not quite. There are certain things they will not
relinquish, it's too threatening. Even this whole idea of the men's movement
originally started out as a truly spiritual movement. But something in the male
threatened. It is this fear of relinquishing something that some of them do
will have to be relinquished, for us as a species to go on. We certainly know
the female has to be given time, and has been given time in the past for
to evolve. For instance, for us to become erect, when the vagina had to change
position, well, who had to adapt? The males. The penis had to grow larger. The
female again needs time. And the male has to give her that time. From one point
view the male has to give the female time for the womb to try to switch into its
Abe: And that can't happen if the man is relating to the woman sexually. Is that
what you're saying?
Florinda: No. See, there have to be enough females who have that time that
something will have to change in the womb. They have to drawn a new possibility.
Juan said our evolution is intent. You see, that leap from the large reptiles to
flying, this idea of wings, was intended. It was an act of intent
Abe: That's very interesting. So you feel that women all over the world
sisterhoods of different kinds, are intending a new human future?
Florinda: They're not aware of it. Some women, I think, are, totally.
Abe: So the man is now going to take a back seat in the evolution of the
Florinda: Exactly, right. Not a back seat. Again, those are words that define a
positive/negative kind of connotation. No. You have to provide the time.
Abe: How can the man do that? Talk about that functionally.
Florinda: You see, we women are relegated to the status of second class
No matter what power we have, we still don't have any real power. We don't
anything. And even for us to talk in little groups, it's almost Iike banging
a huge iron door, because whoever decides, whoever's in power, is not going to
relinquish this for the hell of it. Let's look in terms of politics, let's say
Washington or your capital. I mean, do you think for a moment those men are
even listen to what we're saying? Not in the least. But some kinds of pockets
to be found for something new to develop. Otherwise we're doomed. And this idea
us to save the planet, the environ- ment, all we are really thinking is that we
species will not survive. The earth will certainly survive; it might go into
kind of horrendous winter, but eventually it will come out of it. But we as a
species will not survive.
Abe: Why would a woman read this book Being-in-Dreaming?
Florinda: Very interesting, hmm. Well, if nothing else, I think people who have
been interested in the Castaneda work, would be interested to see it presented
a female's perspective, from somebody who has been in that work for over twenty
years. I do approach the problems differently, probably more directly. The thing
perception. Even our human bodies...the body is, again, a consequence of
We are trapped as persons; we are trapped in language, and that's exactly what
sorcerer, through energy, wants to get out of.
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